Next Monday 1 Year since my Dad passed, feeling so emotional dont know what to do

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On Monday, will be 1 year since my lovely Dad passed. So much has happened since family illness, accidents, it's taken the focus off my grieving, in fact I dont think Ive even started to grieve.

I feel so emotional and keep crying. I would like to do something Monday rather than let it pass but dont know what to do. There's no grave or favourite place to go. I just want to be on my own I think but dont know what to do...Im feeling very lost.

I’m so sorry OP.

A year sounds like a long time but it really isn’t when you’re grieving. I found the first year incredibly difficult, the “firsts” are overwhelming….first birthday without them, first Christmas, first anniversary. It can sometimes feel too much to bear. I did find that the build up to those days was worse than the day itself, how you’re feeling right now is completely ok, I would even say normal.

Do you have a lot of support around you? I hope you find something nice to do on Monday, even if it’s just showing yourself some kindness and honouring your dad in a way that feels right to you. Sending love x

No not really. I might go for a long walk at a country park or something....get some freshair etc

I am so sorry for your loss. I found the run up to the first anniversary was worse than the actual day. Like you, I worried about what I should do. Just don't put yourself under pressure. A long walk and some head space might be just what you need. And it is still very early days, so do exactly what you need to do to grieve.

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I would make sure you have the day to yourself (eg take day off work and make arrangements for the children if you have any)
if there isn’t a place to go, is there one you can designate? Could you consider creating a ritual eg writing a letter to him/looking over photos/lighting a candle?
is there anyone who knew him who could share part of the day with you?

Yes I have Mon & Tues off work we were going away but car accident, boiler breakdown and another expense has wiped me out. Eldest brother has been diagnosed with awful uncurable disease so all in all a rubbish time, and all very much heightened with the year anniversary approaching I think. I will be best on my own I think that day, I still csnt believe he's gone🥹