Struggling six months later

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My lovely dad died six months ago after a long illness but quite a sudden end. I struggled a lot at first but then seemed to be coping quite well. I'm now struggling day to day, is this normal? Is this life going forward? I feel like I have lost an innocence after losing a parent and I will never be the same person again. I've lost other people in my life, but this feels so much harder. I miss him so much and I want him back but I know that cannot happen

So sorry. I am not even two months in and I am going through a rollercoster of emotions but it is still so raw for me. Have you thought about counselling?

Yes, I have been weighing it up as it's hard to know what is a 'normal' reaction and what is struggling. I'm so sorry for your loss

Yes, this is normal. You make progress - for want of better way of putting it - and then you go backwards again.

I lost my husband three years ago - he'd been ill for a long time and he made it to a good age, but it was still a blow.

I have periods of time when I think I'm coping better and then I have days when I can't get out of bed unless there is something that I absolutely have to do. (I'm retired but occasionally do supply teaching.)

6 months is early days - and 2 months is very early indeed. My condolences to you both.

I think it’s what you said when you said you’ve lost an innocence losing a parent. I think it cuts you adrift. I felt lost when my mum died. Like I’d lost part of my own identity.

I feel like I could have written this. Similar circumstances for me too.
I wrote in response earliest that it's hit me. Father's Day stuff is everywhere in the UK and it's hard to avoid feeling sad.
Hope you find the best way for you OP

Perfectly normal, I've found that it comes in waves. Once the funeral is done things seem to settle for a bit, then at about 6 months, the big one for me is always the first anniversary, that one is really tough. I try to resist remembering exact dates so that after a couple of years you are not watching the calendar.

WearyAuldWumman Thankyou I know exactly what you are saying my husband died 2 years ago, had been ill for sometime but a rather sudden death.
OP two months is no time at all, it has barely sunk in. Try to take care of yourself and I find keeping busy helps. My lovely DH and I have 3 disabled
?children now adults (adopted) who need my support and keep me going.
Good luck and take care.

OP be kind yourself. Grief does not have a normal. I am.grieving the loss of my partner in very tragic ciumstances over 2 and h yrs ago. I have read quite a bit about grief, the one thing that has stuck in my head is the idea that grief is like a wave. Sometimes u are dipping ur toes in it and at other times it comes crashing into.u. I don't think.u steer grief. If u have to mask things at work then it can spill out at home. Just 'be". Sending u warm wishes

Thank you to everyone who has commented, it has meant a lot and I'm sorry for everyone else who is grieving. My situation isn't helped by my partner being diagnosed with cancer so it's a double whammy. I'm trying to take it one day at a time and not be to hard on myself if I have a wobble