My dad died

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Can’t sleep. My dad died yesterday morning. It was expected but sudden. I was with him, holding his hand. It was horrific. Can’t stop plying it over and over in my head.

I'm so sorry OP. Do you want to talk about him? My Dad died unexpectedly and I was so bereft. This board was the only thing that helped me. Im glad you were with your Dad, holding his hand when he crossed over into peace🌹

I'm so sorry. You must be devastated. I was with my beloved stepmum when she died last week and I also can't get it out of my mind. It's a huge thing to watch someone pass away, I think it will take time to process it. Huge hug

Thank you for your replies.

Dad was very ill with cancer. He was in a nursing home. He was well on Monday and then suddenly went down hill. I arrived to visit this morning and he passed away just after I got there. He was breathing and then he just wasn’t. I feel stupid saying this given how ill he was but it was just so sudden. I’m so shocked. It’s like he waited for me. I was talking to him, stroking his face and holding his hand, then he was gone.

Oh love, I am sorry. Sending sympathy and a big hug. I know it’s hard. 💐

You have nothing to feel 'stupid' about, even when you know it is going to happen it is still a huge shock when it does. Please don't be so hard on yourself you have suffered one of life's most traumatic events. You will probably find you have PTSD for many months to come but this will eventually settle over time. You are at the beginning of your grief journey, the road ahead will be long and arduous but please know there is help out there if you need it. In time you might want to think about counselling, I think talking about the experience will help. Social media is also very good for contacting with others in a similar situation. The Good Grief Trust is an umbrella organisation and very good as a source of information and for signposting. There are also some excellent chat rooms Marie Curie has an excellent online community where you can post about how you are feeling and connect with others in the same situation. I found this a huge help and a great source of support
Please just know as hard as it is, you will find what works for you in terms of coping mechanisms. Speaking to your GP might also help.
My heart goes out to you, please be very kind and very gentle with yourself xx

I’m sorry about your darling dad op.

I’m so very sorry for your loss. Be very kind to yourself and take each day as it comes ❤️

Be kind to yourself. Today is day 1. There is no ‘should’ and there are no rules in this.