My dsdad is dying he is riddled with cancer , my dmum had a hysterectomy last year to remove her cancer my first dsdad died from cancer and so did my dnan both a long time ago , but I'm struggling with it all . Luckily I'm not working as I honestly would be in a worse state than I am now , I can't sleep properly and have no appetite and don't feel I have anyone to talk to , I'm already on antidepressants and they won't up my dose and I know things will get worse before it gets better , no reason for this post other than to get it off my chest really