Really struggling with news of death (TW - Suicide)

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I found out on Thursday one of DD’s nursery friend’s dad killed himself last summer and I can’t stop thinking about it.

Dd and his Dd were friends from 8 months until they both went to school. They moved away so we saw them periodically, but as the girls grew up it became less frequent.

I read an article on Thursday about his death and it hit me like a million ton of bricks. We’d seen him maybe 3 months before?

I just can’t compute the way that he ended his life with the man I’d known. I know people hide it well, but he was honestly so lovely. I feel so sad about it all and because it was last year feel like I have no where to put the grief.

I feel selfish af feeling like this.

I didn't want to read and run. Hugs. Yes, some people are expert at hiding profound depression. Suicide is such an act of violence against those left behind, sadly.

Grief gas no rational thought to it. Accept u feel the way u feel. I have read a lot about suicide as my partner died this way over two years ago. It is not always evident they feel do desperate. I had no idea. Lots of literature has suggested there is a ripple effect to suicide for those left behind that is sometimes, we can feel incredibly affected by the death of someone , even if it is not someone we feel close to. It is tragic. Their pain is over and our's is ongoing. Looking for answers is fruitless believe me I've tried. Take care OP.

Also read it a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Also read grief is like a wave, sometimes it is on your toes, whist others times it crashes into u.