Glad it’s over

[Loulou560]

Afternoon
Just wanted to say how glad I am yesterday is over, and hope that it helps others to know they’re not alone.
I lost my mother in 2021 when I was pregnant with my first little girl. I have two now and thank God for them.
I lost my last surviving Uncle this year, and my father is in hospital. He’s been there a month, and he’s getting more frail by the day.
Yesterday, we visited him in hospital, and it was the most depressing thing ever.
Looking at social media, with people bragging about their multiple generations, happy faces and seemingly perfect lives just makes me want to tell them to #%*#}. Don’t get me wrong, I had that growing up, and was grateful every single day for my family. When they’re all dying around you and those who are left are really struggling, it’s so depressing.
Most of my friends my age have no idea how to relate, as most of them have healthy parents who do a lot for them. When they ask me how I am, I say I’m really struggling, then I won’t hear from them for ages.
If it wasn’t for my beautiful children, I’d be in such a dark place.
For any of you out there struggling, I get it, it’s rubbish. I hope the new year brings you better times and memories of loved ones.

I hear you - have found it particularly difficult this year too xxx

Sending hugs, @Loulou560

You are brave. Your little ones are very lucky to have you as a mum.

@toycat I hope things improve for you x
@MadAntonia ghats so kind of you to say. I always do my best for them x

I lost my parents when I was young so they never met my girls.
My grandpa was my absolute hero but he died when I was 6 months pregnant with my second child.
Thank goodness for my sister. We are very close and get eachother through moments like Christmas and birthdays.
Like you, my peers just don't get how lonely it is to have no older relatives who remember your childhood. It is a feeling that I can't describe like a book that is permanently closed and can't be read any longer.
Over the years my husband, sister and I have built our new traditions and we can enjoy Christmas. I hate Mother's Day though. All the smiling photos of friends with their mums. I feel so cheated out of them.
I hope today was better than Christmas Day for you. Sending you empathetic hugs.

@elfintinsel sounds like you’ve had it rough, and what you said about a book being permanently closed really resonates with me. Bless you.
I'm glad to hear you’ve been able to build on new traditions with your husband and sister.
Thank you for your reply, and a happy new year to you x