I don't really know what to say as I am completely devastated, my grandad has passed away and he and my nan took me in and raised since i was 13. I haven't seen him since October and I would ring them two-three days as I used to ring him everyday and in the end he wouldn't talk so I went to two-three days and he talked me so much more. Everytime I tried to go down he was always not there or with my uncle - I tried to call him on Friday and he died an hour before I called him but the last person he spoke too before passing away was my uncle not me. I let him down and I hate myself. My eyelids are also swollen from crying.
He had disabtes and was in and out of hospital, he often spoke about dying. I know he had a decent life as best as he could considering he worked in the mines and witnessed all of that which I know deeply affected him as he told me once and cried.
I miss him so much and it has been two days, my family won't speak to each other and one of them mentioned a will already after I said we need to cover the funeral through his money over. I have also been told I need to find a new home for his dog as he's aggressive and he won't come with me as he went for my toddler.
The worst thing is I tried to call him just to hear his voice and it just keep ringing ðŸ˜
He was my last living grandparent.