To sometimes feel like I'm the saddest person in the world.

[gemloving]

I carry it well, my grief I mean. It's been almost 4 months but lord I miss him so much. My darling boy was stillborn at 35 weeks. I now know a lot of people who have experienced it but I'm just so sad still. Friends and family around me are fantastic, I'm being well cared for still by the bereavement midwives & have two wonderful living children aged 2&4, a kind, caring husband so in a way, I won the lottery in life but there is this void that I carry, this sadness I can't shake. I didn't even know what grief was like before he died. I don't know why I'm saying it on here but it's good to get it off my chest to a few strangers I suppose.

I am so so sorry. If you would like to, please tell us about your little one.

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so recent, of course you're still in deep grief. You don't need to apologize for your feelings, as the adage goes, 'What is grief if not love persevering?' You had so much love for your tiny boy, and it's still there.

@gemloving I've been grappling with compounded grief for over a year, it's so unpredictable.

But my loss was the natural order of life, yours was not.

I'm so sorry, I can't imagine the pain. It has to wash over you, there is no other way.

Love to you x

What a terrible shock for your family and you. I am so so sorry. 💐

I’m so sorry about your baby. My daughter died when she was 1, so different circumstances but equally unexpected and traumatic. I’ve found finding others in a similar situation has helped me a bit and would be happy to chat if it would be helpful.

I lost my darling boy 27 weeks into pregnancy. Many years ago. I still mourn him, I will for as long as I'm breathing, but it becomes more bearable as time passes. You're so newly into your grief, don't have any expectations on yourself. It still hurts on special days like Christmas, his birthday, my birthday. You're never "whole" if that makes sense.

I have a photo of my son next to my bed, and he's the first/last thing I see everyday. That keeps him alive in my memory.