TW-Suicidal partner

[mumofdos]

Hi,

My husband has been on deep depression for 4 months, and it seems no improvement has happened whatsoever.

In this time we have tried.

1. going inpatient
2. starting medication, but after two months he stop as it was making him manic (and now need to wait before starting a new one)
3. Therapy twice a week for Body dysmorphia
4. Moved to his home country to be looked after his parents

I am starting to loose hope, he still calls me telling me he is in hell and wants to die, he has had thought of the process and multiple times has said goodbye on video calls.

I love him but I am starting to loose hope and I don't know how to plan life ahead for the family, or how long we can wait for him to recover.
I have a 4 and 2 year old, we are eating savings in this country by renting a flat with a room i no longer use now but we used to share. And i feel so lonely and lost in guidance.

That is such a difficult situation. You sound very supportive of your husband and are clearly doing everything you can to help.

I have been in the same situation and it is so rough. Honestly, if he's switching meds, it will be significantly harder right now than normal. Withdrawal will make everything worse.

All you can do is fake positive for your kids and try to remain supportive for your husband. Take care of yourself - you are just as important! 💐

If anti depressants are making him manic then he’s on the wrong drugs. This is usually a sign of bipolar so he needs treating with bipolar drugs.