Its going to be a long night

[gazpachosoupday]

My Dad is dying, I got the call this evening from one of my sister's that it wont be long now, I couldnt get over there tonight, due to the train strikes and I am not sure what help I would be anyway.

My other sister is with him tonight, they called the paramedics and they checked him out, but he doesnt want to spend another night in hospital. Maybe its possible he will perk up but then we are just kicking it down the road to be honest (bowel cancer)

I think he has more or less decided he has had enough now, he has spent the last few weeks sorting stuff out. So I guess, we just wait.

I dont know whether I should head over tomorrow to see him, my office is filled with covid at the moment and while I am fine, I have no idea what I am carrying.

Does it really matter? Sorry I am rambling.

I am just not sure what I should be doing. I am hoping an adult is going to come along and tell me what to do, I suppose.

Hand hold from me OP

I'm so sorry. It's not for anyone else to tell you what to do. You must do what you think is right for your situation. Everyone handles these things in their own way. 💐

So sorry - I've been in your shoes 20yrs ago when my Dad died. Just go tomorrow- it doesn't matter at this stage what you may have it won't affect the outcome. Go see him and then take it from there.
I remember driving 2 hrs back home only to get a call to come back - literally went to the loo packed a bag and drove back again and stayed there (very understanding employer). He passed away within 24 hrs but I was glad I was there for the end.

I would go tomorrow, but I would take a Covid test first just in case. It wouldn't be because of your dad, but because of others on the ward and the staff. It's such a horrible time knowing your dad is so close to the end of his life. I hope you and he have a peaceful sleep tonight. 💐

@determinedtomakethiswork he is at home, so tbh its only him I really have to worry about in that sense, but I have done a test now for my own piece of mind.

Thanks all for the handhold, I think if he goes downhill massively, a sibling will pick me up on their way during the night.

I have spoken to the old bugger today, he has perked up massively and has informed me he is not intending to die today. (its his partner's birthday)

So we have kicked the can down the road

I have no words for the emotions at the moment, but I just wanted to say thank you again for the handhold.