Today is THAT day.

[Feelingcrazy123]

Today is the 4th anniversary of my brothers death. He died in a sudden, traumatic and horrific way. I can’t find the word to explain it. I was 18 weeks pregnant with our little boy.

I’m 37 weeks pregnant and have covid so I can’t spend any time with family - I don’t want to spread it around as it’s not a nice strain at all.

husband is working on call and then at the match later. MIL is going to pick up little one later so I can rest for an hour which will be greatly appreciated.

I feel so alone. We normally do something - go to the pub for a drink or 2 as a family. We are a very close family. I just want to cry, my emotions feel so raw today - it’s like I’m back there on that day.

Did you want to talk about what happened with your brother op?
I’m so sorry for your loss I hope you’re ok

Don't think of the bad things OP. Remember your brother in other ways. Look at photos, light a candle and think of all the nice times you had together. This is what I do. You can't change a thing but you can change the way you look at things. This year will be six years for me and the pain is not so bad. The memories are what keep you going and nothing - not even death can take them away

@Feelingcrazy123
I'm so sorry for your loss 😔 xx

Big hugs OP 🫂

So sorry for your loss.

It must be so tough not to be with family today.

My brother died when I was 17, it's devastating to lose someone so close. I really feel for you.

If you want to talk about him then we can be here for you x

So sorry for your loss. I think studded traumatic deaths are awful because your mind always goes to that, instead of the many year of knowing the person beforehand. That's what I get about my father's death. I try and force myself.to think of days out or conversations we had when that happens.

Can your husband not miss the match just this once!? Being ill with COVID and still having to look after a young child sounds awful, never mind being very pregnant and having to deal with your grief on the anniversary of your brother's death.

Hi, OP. Firstly, we're so sorry to hear of the loss of your brother. And we hope you recover from Covid quickly so you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy. We're going to move your thread to our Bereavement forum now as we think you might get more responses there - do let us know if you're not happy with that and we'll move it back to Chat.

Can't imagine how you are feeling.
Do something nice for you today.