I feel so alone in the pain of losing you. I'm so grateful to have got to my 40s and still had you around and to lose you so suddenly was a blessing for you, but a huge shock to me. I wish they weren't selling your home already. It's too soon for me. I wish I had space for all of your things. I'm keeping as much as I can. I have seen you almost every week of my life, sometimes more. I know you knew you much I adored you. I felt it from you too. And that you got to meet my children and love them and they you makes me so blessed. I can't imagine living the rest of my life without your steady constant support. You were there for us kids through all the shit and through the moments of joy. We made you laugh that last time, as we often did. I don't know if I believe we'll meet again but I hope you are with Grandad if that could be.