the love of my life

[angiebaby78]

Its coming up to the third anni of my partner passing on. The kids were not his so it seems a bit unfair to ask them what they wnt to do for the anni. im really sad at the moment as it was a sudden death and even though people see i have moved on inside i am still grieving for my soul mate any one want to give me some advice or just some words of comfort. I have also just moved away from my friends so have no one to talk to .

Did you look at Cruse Angie?

I'm sorry about your split and hope you're coping ok - were the dcs dh's?

only the smallest dd. Thats something else that happened this week The ex dp dad of ds and dd1 has decided to take me to court for contact!! It never rains but pours.XX

Shall i start a thread for that issue as well ??? What do you think ???

still here only a few more hours till i relive the 11th march 2005. every year i go through the day thinking what i was doing in 2005. I wasnt even with him when he passed over. I was told by the doctor that it was going to happen that night . So me and his eldest son had to go and sort out my 2 kids who were with a friend. this friend coulnt have them stay over so we had to pick them up and take them to my mums. By the time we got back to the hospital he had gone. His bro was with him so he wasnt on his. At the time a friend said the same had happened with her bro. THe family were at the bedside. They went for a coffe and when they came back he had gone. She told me they had both (her bro and my dp) waited for us to go so we didnt see the actual time. Sorry about long post only got no one else to talk to . I do know that on the way back to the hospital in the car we stopped off somewhere and i knew i got a feeling that he had gone right at that moment. I was roughly right with my timing cause i asked the staff. I went to sleep that night cuddled up to his green fluffy jumper that still smelled of him. That was the worst night of my life. I knew that just 24 hours earlier we were in bed together. He was on the oxygen i was holding his hand. We were both crying but didnt speak. I think we were both aware that this was it. He woke me up that night for some tea and biscuits. He never managed the biscuits. Sorry about all this writing first time a lot of it has left my heart. Been held there for all this time. It chooses now to spill out. See you later. xxx

big hugs im thinking of youxxx

Thinking of you.

Lots of love and strength.

XXX

angie - my heart goes out to you and I do undertsnad how you are feeling i am glad that you are posting on the other site I mentioned, I have found support there and here invaluable - you have my email address if you want to chat. Love to you xxx

hello to all who post on here for me. Am doing ok at the mo, didnt5 get round to going to gps just looked at webs people gave me. Am still on my own, feeling very good about that it was the right thing to do. Am consdering doing the racefor life, anyone else done it ??? Not sure if my knee will take it so have to check it first. I think i found this site just when i needed it kept on questioning if i was going mad. I feel so much better now i havewrote about a lot that was going on in my head. This would be a bit like online councelling. Thanks to all of you for your support if you are still watching me. Feel free to post back as i love reading the replies. xxx