4 years gone

[weebarra]

Today is the 4th anniversary of my sister's death.
I got a call from DH on a sunny Friday afternoon as I was picking DCs up from school.
I remember sinking to the ground and my friends gathering round. We made it home somehow.
I remember gathering the DCs round me and just feeling sick.
She made the choice to end her life and planned it meticulously.
I respect her choices, but our family is so lost without her. DCs were 5, 8 and 10. She was a fantastic auntie.
My parents are still so broken. We miss her so much.
I'm at work. The only people who know this date are my family, I didn't want to write an attention seeking FB post, but I know that I can write here anonymously and just say how I feel.

I'm so sorry to read this OP, that sounds incredibly tough. You sound so strong. No advice but thinking of you today.

We hear you. So sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry for your loss 💐

Would you like to tell us more about your lovely sister?

Thinking of you.

I’m so sorry. I hope today is kind to you and your family. If you’d like to tell us more about your sister I’d love to hear it.

So sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry.

So sorry for your loss 💐

She died when she was 36. She was 5 years younger than me.
She very nearly died as a cot death as a baby, when my parents went in to check on her she was blue. My dad was a doc so did cpr till the ambulance came and she survived.
She loved poetry, tequila sunrises and tiesto. She suffered hugely with her mental health but she was such a good friend. She went to a weekly boarding school for 'educationally fragile' children and thrived. Some of her classmates came to her funeral.
She did CSV helping a family with a child with autism in Walthamstow, which was ironic as she loved E17.
She loved all sports and was a talented football player. She would love the fact that DD is too.
I think she was probably autistic but was told she had a personality disorder instead.

She sounds fabulous. Sorry for your loss 💐💐💐