Tomorrow would be Nan's birthday, and I am having a bit of a bad night

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It has been nearly 7 months since she died, but tomorrow would have been her birthday, and I am in bits again. It has been hitting quite hard recently even though it has been months since she died.
Don't know why I am posting. I should be in bed, but not having a good night.

Yu're posting cos you want to say something. It's fine, things like that hit for ages, (ever even) but that;s ok. Someone usually here to talk too. I should go to bed too. Look after you

Thank you.

When I'm feeling bad I do tend to post on here because there is always someone around to talk to.
Really should go to bed, but can't wind down atm.

Anniversaries and Birthdays are always hard think of the good memories and smile.

thinking of you and im sure you have so many memoriesxx

I feel awful because I haven't been able to get to her grave.
Was working all day, then sorting out boys after school, and the cemetery closed early so I couldn't get there.
Feel I really should have got there today, and feel awful.

PC, feel so for you, why don't you go over the weekend sometime?

I still miss my nan but her grave is in Birkenhead so I never get to visit. Its very hard sometimes

Feel I've let her down even though she's not here anymore.
It has all been hitting hard again recently. I still can't believe I'll never see her again.

I am going to try to get down there tomorrow, but still feel I should have got there today as it is her birthday.

Massive hugs - I know exactly how you feel. It's the most horrible feeling in the world.

I haven't been to my Gran's...well, bit of the crem, I suppose; my aunty just told them to scatter her so they did, and none of us were there. I've really struggled with that but now I think she wouldn't want me associating her with the crem anyway. I've just started buying daffodils on her birthday (they were her favourites) and lighting a candle, and trying to remember teh good things.

It is hard though.

x

PC, if you would like some company, I can come with you, perhaps we could get some flowers and go straight after work?

Its no bother!

Thanks, MNLS, you're a sweetie. I'll be ok, I think. Just feel bad I wasn't there today.