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Mum suddenly died I am in shock. What do I do?

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Winemygoodenemy · 15/12/2022 04:00

My mum late 60s. Moved back to U.K. with dad to be near my brother 4 weeks ago. I live 4 hours away. she died a few hours ago.

I got a message from my dad saying she was in hospital at 4pm. All ok. Couldn’t get hold of him so called my brother. Told mum had a chest infection so she was taken to a ward for treatment. My dad called back. Told me my mum had a touch of flu past few days and wanted to rest. This morning he called an ambulance as she very tired and her breathing sounded bad. She was ruched through and ended up in intensive care getting treatment. No need to come.

5pm the doctor phoned me to say my mum has pneumonia and they need to but her into an induced coma as she is struggling to breath. Best to do will help fight infection. I need to FaceTime her to see her awake and talk to her. FaceTimed and she looked really I’ll. she couldn’t talk. Told her I loved her she said she loved me too. Had to go as she was getting worse.

7pm my brother called to say she is under but they are struggling with her heart. They have called specialised from another hospital to use a special machine. 9pm I call my brother to say I am coming down in the morning. Train strikes mean i have to drive. Just finished a night shift at 6am that morning and didn’t feel safe and my partner will bring me.

They were told to go home. 11.10pm I get a FaceTime from my brother saying mum is dying and to stay on. He has just arrived at the hospital. He let me see her as I was telling him and my dad to hold her, let me tell her I love her. She died very soon after - I watched this on FaceTime. Unsure if she had died, but guessed with everyone’s faces. I was so confused as it happened so quickly.

debrief with dr after all done on FaceTime. She died of sepsis. They promptly started treatment. But she had gone into organ failure that morning at home. Too late.

I feel numb and shocked. Especially as I saw this via FaceTime. Was only 7 hrs of being aware and most of that was being told to hold on coming down as she will be ok. Feel bad as not seen her since September. I was going down at Xmas for a week. She told me to wait till her new flat was sorted. Only moved in 10 days ago. not seen her much due to covid and life etc.

Spoke to my dad after and got told she had COPD and didn’t want to say. Had a serious of infections in the past 6 months and said to my dad she was fed up fighting them as they were getting worse. said she thinks the next one will kill her. She was right.

I am leaving in the morning as the dr said nothing I can do. My dad is with my brother. I want to see my mum. But may not have staff to allow this tomorrow.

Cant cry or sleep think in shock. My partner came over and has taken the next few days off work to be with me. My family haven’t met him yet. I am on the sofa and he is in bed as I don’t want to disturb him as he is driving 4 hrs for me tomorrow and needs the rest.

what happens next. My mum doesn’t want a funeral and their friends are all over in different countries. My mum retired in October and bought a flat to be beside her grandkids. She got a few weeks there. No idea if the cold did as tye heating had broken so using temp heaters or stress of moving. At least she died in this country. But a few weeks of coming back. Still in shock and guilty I am not there. What happens next? We were having a family Christmas first in 3 years.

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FuckConvoGiveMeAForest · 15/12/2022 07:06

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GreenManalishi · 15/12/2022 07:07

I am so so sorry, it is the most brutal shock. Be kind to yourself, do the basics and just do the next bit like others have said. If you feel you can't get through the day then get through the next ten minutes, and repeat.

Sending you love and strength, you will never forget your mum but the days will get easier with time.

dangerrabbit · 15/12/2022 07:07

No words. Just wanted to give sympathy ❤️💗💐

jennyt82 · 15/12/2022 07:08

I'm so sorry for your loss. My mum died of the same thing last month, she took poorly at home and died the following day.
I was totally blindsided too, I just wasn't expecting it, I saw her the day she was taken in to hospital and although she looked dreadful she was still very chatty and I thought she'd be ok. The hospital called us in the next morning and to say her organs were failing and she died 5 hours later.
Just wanted to say you're not alone and I'm sorry to hear you're going through this too

Vallmo47 · 15/12/2022 07:16

I’m so sorry Op.

cloudrunner · 15/12/2022 07:17

OP, I am so sorry. Losing a beloved parent without warning is just brutal. I am so glad you were able to see and speak to her before she died, even through a screen.

I agree with @Toddlerteaplease . I'd have a funeral. They're for the living, and they're the ritual we've evolved to express our grief, love and thanks. It's a space for all of you who loved her to come together and mourn her. It doesn't matter if it's only her family; numbers aren't what count. And if she has friends abroad you could stream it to them. It's very comforting to plan songs and speeches and readings that will celebrate her.

the other thing that might help; writing down your memories of her, now, while they are sharpest. You'll be amazed by how much you'll have forgotten in a few years and reading them back will conjure her up.

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Powerplant · 15/12/2022 07:18

I’m so sorry for your loss and know the shock of losing a parent suddenly. The hospital staff can guide you and your brother through the next steps. It will take a long time to comprehend what has happened but hopefully you have the support of other family members as well.

Threepe · 15/12/2022 18:05

Hi op I’ve been trying to reply to you all day my mam also died last week from the same thing and she was my whole life , my best friend. I wish I had words that would help, I don’t I’m afraid, your probably in shock at the moment,just try and stay around people that you feel comfortable with , take each day as it comes. X x

Winemygoodenemy · 16/12/2022 03:40

Thank you all. It’s all a blur. Needed to sort out someone to look after my cat and a few really important things with work to let me be off. My boss arrived at mine early days to get a handover and support. She was great.

I arrived late afternoon. Saw my dad. Went out for food, which wasn’t the best idea. But he needed to eat. He was keen to try and be normal and show us places in his new area.

talked about what happened. We helped hil
set up his heating as it was complicated and him and my mum were really cold. Now too warm as can’t turn it off. Got neighbours to let us borrow internet so he is connected.

I managed to track down my mums siblings to let them know. Complicated as they lost touch but my super sleuthing did it.

Just friends now to tell. Hopefully seeing my mum tomorrow as my dad forgot her rings and got upset. I am back up for a few days on Sunday as my partner needs to work and I need clothes etc. He isn’t coming down now for Christmas as he says I need to be with my family at Christmas and he said it will need to be just us - my brother agrees. He is a newish partner and didn’t really know my family. But I want him here for support. But understand as it will be sad as it was the first Christmas we will be having as a family for a few years. My mum loved Christmas and was excited.

Tomorrow we need to properly sort internet. My partner is doing that as we go to the hospital. My dad wants my mums stuff gone when I return. Will do that and organise the funeral.

still in shock. Flat is still in process of being set up. So will help my dad make it a home over Christmas.

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hmb255 · 16/12/2022 03:58

I am so sorry to read this OP. I am glad your partner is there and will be able to take you to see your dad and brother tomorrow, you will need each other. It's such a shock losing a loved one so quickly and it won't feel real for a while. Make sure you look after each other and you are looking after yourself at this sad time. Thinking of you x

Oblomov22 · 16/12/2022 04:12

I am so very sorry OP. This is a huge shock and will take you a long time ti get over, and then grieve.

One of the problems is that She had Copd, sepsis and pneumonia and no one told you. I would find that very hard.

You will go through the motions in the next few days, organising funeral months, it takes a long time to grieve. Have a good cry, that might help. Flowers

KateBalesCardi · 16/12/2022 04:13

So very sorry OP, will be thinking of you Flowers

Winemygoodenemy · 17/12/2022 14:23

Thanks all. My mum didn’t want a funeral, so direct to cremation. Still waiting on cause of death certificate from hospital. But funeral company picked and arranged.

I need to go back home tomorrow, but back on Thursday for a week. My partner is not coming down for Xmas now as he says it’s for family and I need to be with my dad.

my dad is desperate to pack up my mums stuff and buy furniture fir the flat they moved into 2 weeks ago. My partner says I need to sort this out. want my partner here with me. But suppose I need to sort my dad out and my partner has to work and already taken time off for me. It’s also the second time he has met my parents

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