I want to run away

[feelinglonely101]

It’s in the title really. Feeling very low. I want to run away for a few days. I have a 6 month old. My dad died in July. I feel like I have been carrying on for my baby. I’m running on empty and I just feel like my baby is better off without me right now.

I am so sorry for your loss. My DM died in July too, but in her case it was in many ways a relief - but I still miss her and this time of year makes it feel worse, doesn't it?

Your baby absolutely wouldn't be better off without you. Despite your sadness you are your baby's only mummy and you are so very much needed. Goodness, it's still early days and you've had so much to deal with in becoming a parent as well.

Do you have help and back up? Can you talk to your midwife, health visitor or GP? You might have PND on top of your grief. I think it's often really, really difficult to ask for help, but you have posted here which is a start.

My Mum died suddenly last month. Getting on with Christmas for the kids but I'm not looking forward to it this year. I feel like I'm on autopilot with brain fog all the time now. I'm just heartbroken, I miss her so much

I’ve been where you are, my dad died 2 weeks after my daughter was born 15 years ago and I did reach a point where I felt so low that I thought everyone including my kids were better off.

i had PND as well as dealing with my grief and I reached out to my doctor and health visitor and also had councelling.
hugs x

Thank you for your replies. I am sorry that you’ve experienced similar 😞. Life can be so cruel, can’t it? I’m feeling better and more positive today. I think yesterday was just a day full of emotion. I’m going to contact some grief counsellors and also my health visitor too x

I’m glad your going to contact your hv and grief counsellors, it’s the first step into getting the support you need.

Fwiw I was a complete mess around that time and it took a while before I started feeling better. I did go on meds though which helped.