Lost both parents

[fastandthecurious1]

Within 8 months of each other... dad April 21 mil December 21. I am feeling very lonely and cannot shake this feeling even though i have my lovely husband and son it's that crowed room but still feeling alone Moment.

I have moments where I'm blinded by heartache that I have no one anyone that loves me unconditionally and that fierce support anymore even though I am fully independent it terrifies me that I don't have a support network to that exempt and I don't really know why because I am fine as I am.

My parents had been separated for many years but I was very close to them both separately and i I just feel so angry all the time.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation? I have a couple of lovely friends but no one knows the pain and situation I'm in so it's hard to explain

I had a slightly different reaction but yes, the loss of both of them within three months left me feeling a bit untethered to the world and freaked out that my siblings and I had become the "older generation". It's been two years and I still sometimes have a wave of grief, especially in those moments where they would have been there for me... It is improving though and I also feel less bitter this year than I did last year...

PM me - I’ve joined this club very recently and can relate to the feeling of the loss of the safety net that was always there. I
have waves of feeing scared. Which sounds weird but I can’t articulate it any better yet.

Me too. Lost DF 3 years ago and DM in September. I don't think I've processed it yet. I catch myself thinking about my parents - as a presence that's always there - and then remembering that they're gone, and it does feel like being lost in a crowd as a child, worrying that you'll never be protected and loved by them again. But I somehow manage to claw back from giving in to grief by the very real feeling that they are 'in' me and my siblings - their legacy lives on in us, from the way we do things and what we value, and that helps me feel that they're not really gone.

Yes, it hits me every now and then that I don't have that unconditional love and support. It's been a while for me now, I'm 44 and my dad died when I was 29, then shortly after my mum was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. I was 36 when she died but I essentially lost them both around the same time.
I have kind supportive in laws but ultimately of course DH is their priority. It's hard, very hard sometimes 💐