Queen's death has triggered me

[MrsC20]

My Dad died in August and I was there when he died. I have good and bad days but I know this sounds silly but I have found Queen Elizabeth's death a big trigger for me.

I am a Royalist and went to lay flowers for her but just couldn't bring myself to go see her cortege head away from Balmoral as it just brings back all the memories of my Dad's funeral.

I feel guilty not going to see her cortege and getting fed up of seeing facebook / social media posts of people describing it as a 'once in a lifetime' opportunity and I feel i missed out on something monumental especially for a Royalist like me. But i would have been too emotional. I've been crying all day today. I have already seen funeral cars lately, i don't need to see more and a sea of phones along with it.

I'm just finding it hard and thankfully have stayed sober. I could honestly just disable all social media for the time being as fed up of seeing people put posts up on social media about her death. Someone has died and they just want to make it into a circus so they can get their facebook likes. Sorry if i am ranting lol. I just hate days like this 😥

I just really miss my Dad and want all this hurt to go. Then when I heard the Queen died, i'm like who next? My friend who completed suicide's first year anniversary is coming up too. I'm just lost.

I'm sorry about your dad and your friend. It doesn't sound silly at all.

I think it's difficult for lots of people to have this exaggerated collective mourning thrust upon us 24/7. It is tasteless to see people excited about witnessing the aftermath of a death. I am finding that increasingly difficult.

Your loss is so recent, no wonder it is distressing. Be kind to yourself.

I'm sorry for your loss.
That isn't silly at all. Please don't think that!

Many people are feeling the same and it brings back the memories and feelings for lots of people. You are not silly or alone.

Would you like to share a story about your dad ? I'm sure he was an amazing man.

Lots of love your way!

Disable Facebook for a while, I have and I don't miss it. I can't handle all the competitive posts either. Death is hard to cope with and there is no right or wrong way of feeling in its aftermath, take care of you

Thank you. Yes it is difficult to watch others be so tasteless but I think my recent bereavement makes it more difficult.

Yes it certainly brings a lot back to people. I just couldn't watch the car go by as I would have been in tears.

I disabled both Facebook and IG today.

Sorry for your losses OP, you aren’t the only person feeling like this I am sure.

I can sort of understand.
While I'm not a royalist, when the queen died it reminded me so much of my grandma that it felt like losing her all over again.
I remembered her cuddles, her smell, her voice, it was all so clear that it hurt like hell.

I saw a tiktok saying that when someone dies, your life explodes with sad glitter. It gets in everything and on everything. As time goes by, you manage to deal with most of it, but sometimes when something moves, you find little pockets of it that explode again.

Bizarre analogy but I found it to be very true.

I've been a basket case today, my sister died in January and for some reason seeing all the news of death and public displays of upset seems to have triggered me as well.

Thank you 😘

Beautiful analogy ❤️

I am so sorry for your loss. I am close to my younger sister and couldn't imagine what you are going through.
Yes HRH's death has been everywhere and impossible to avoid. I am just living day by day right now trying to limit it all xx

Hugs hug hugs you are still so close to losing your dad you have nothing to reproach yourself for. Take it gently .

So sorry to all of us who've had recent losses.

My mum died on 31 July. I switched the news on yesterday just in time to hear the newsreader saying something like "and although she was our queen, we must remember that her family has lost their mum and granny" and that was enough to set me off again ☹️.

I walked through M&S this morning and I was automatically scanning the wee cardigans to see if there was anything my mum would like. I had a small cry then and a passing woman quietly just handed me a little pack of tissues.

It is hard. 🌹🌹🌹

@CarrieMoonbeams, I don't think it just applies to people who have passed away recently. (I hope you don't think I'm criticising you, because I'm not, just putting my point of view.)
I have a close neighbour who randomly sings, just like my DF did. He passed away over five years ago.
Hearing my neighbour sing recently reminded me of my Dad, and the fact that I lost him. (And he died in a particularly nasty way.)
I think these things can come back to you at any time, often in an unexpected way.
I'm sending massive sympathy to anyone who has had sad memories revived by the death of our Queen. The reawakening of those memories can be just as sad and painful as when we first felt them.

True enough @vipersnest1

My Mum died 6 weeks ago and I was immobilised with grief on Friday - just couldn't stop crying.
I know I wasn't crying for the Queen, I was crying for my Mum - but it totally took me by surprise.
The cortège passed within a mile of my house on Sunday but I just couldn't face seeing it. Completely had enough of coffins.
Sending hugs to everyone in the same position x

Sorry for your loss too @Heffapotamus . I've just walked past floral tributes and couldn't even look at them - out of the side of my eye I could see the wee cards that people had left with the flowers and that was enough to set me off again.

A gentle hug to us all.

Glad i wasn't the only one who couldn't go out and see it.

Yeah i think the death of the Queen has allowed me to get the tears out for my Dad