Over dependence on personal objects?

[CompostMaker]

My dad (who I was very close to) died unexpectedly a few days before Christmas. We were looking forward to him coming to stay just a few days later. His presents were all ready for him under our tree - we ended up putting them in his coffin instead.
Circumstances of his death were difficult and coroner is still investigating.
I an still very upset and have unbearable urges to speak to him. This week has been difficult as we are selling his house and I have been speaking to the coroner.
Today a tradesman accidentally broke a largish garden pot with a small evergreen tree in that was my dad’s. I REALLY loved that pot. It was outside my lounge, I saw it every day and smiled. I watched it sway in the wind. I knew dad had planted it when it was small and cared for it. It just brought me a lot of joy.
I am so upset and angry over this pot being broken. I know it’s a massive over reaction but I just get an adrenaline rush of rage when I think about it. I went to the church and cried for ages this afternoon.
The guy apologised to DH (I kept out of his way) and I know it was an accident. He has gone now and we won’t see him again. DH told him it was fine. God knows I have made plenty of mistakes in my life. It just seems to have triggered something.
I know it was just a pot. I don’t think I would have been so cross about another object though. It’s just gardening and as important to him.
Anyone else been though this? What did you do? How did you cope? Honestly I feel like I want to smash things, I have such a rage inside me.

Sorry if that’s a bit incomprehensible, I am crying as I type.

Just because it was an accident it doesn't make your feelings any less or any less valid.

It's fine to feel angry. It's a very normal part of the grief process.

Allow yourself to work through those feelings and so T try and push them away or invalidate them because it was an accident.

Have you tried repotting the plant and seeing if it helps you feel better to at least hold on to that? I don't think you're being irrational though, there are a finite number of things from your dad and each thing lost can't be replaced so of course it hurts to lose something. I'm sorry to hear about your dad.

Sorry for your loss, OP.

I know how you feel, as I've kept lots of things belonging to my late parents, and made by my parents (I'm struggling to find room for all the furniture made by my father). I don't think it's "over dependence" ... objects can be like time machines. They can be highly significant, and they can be comforting. I don't think there is anything wrong in being sentimental about possessions.

How badly is the pot broken? Could you get it mended? Even if it looked obviously mended, that might be better than losing it.

You are allowed to be angry, it's healthy. It's the very early days of processing the hurt and confusion of any death never mind a sudden and traumatic loss.

Get the plant repotted tomorrow and look into a repair for the original pot and please be kind to yourself.

Thanks everyone. I have tried to repot it - great idea. I will hold on to the pot and think about what to do with it.
It’s nice to hear your kind words - it helps me not to be too hard on my self