My wonderful dad

[recklessruby]

8 months ago my father died suddenly at home in his sleep. He was 79, had survived 2 strokes and various epileptic seizures.
I was the last person to speak to him.
But I don't live in the same country as my parents and I was just days away from seeing them when my mother had a heart attack (since recovered) and my father died.
My sister, brother, son and daughter will.scatter his ashes next week.
I am the eldest child and was particularly close to my father.
Everyone else is moving forward but I m stuck.
I m so dreading the scattering and I dream about him constantly.
I feel like my life will never be happy again and I can't function.
Will it ever get better?

I feel like my life will never be happy again and I can't function.

This is not what your father would want for you. As sad as it is, it is a natural course of events that our parents die before we do. We mourn them, but our greatest tribute to them is to live a joyful life that they wanted for us.

If you are stuck, get grief counselling. As quickly as possible.

I am so sorry for your loss and wish I could take the pain away however, its impossible.
Have you thought about grief counselling? Someone qualified, impartial and has some coping strategies for you.

In regards to his ashes, there are so many things you can do e.g. have some of them put in a ring or keyring. You can then keep it close to you.

The pain may never go away but you need some help with coping. Dont be ashamed to ask for help and support.

Regardless of age, he was ur daddy. I don't believe in god but I do believe loved ones are looking over you.

Take a walk to a sea area or park. Talk to him if that helps bring you closer to him.

Take care of yourself