My Darling mum has died and I'm bereft.

[JasperJohnsPaintbrush]

She died on Sunday shortly after I reached her after travelling for 2 terrifying hours through dreadful storm conditions on the roads.

I love and miss her so very very much.

@JasperJohnsPaintbrush how are you today?

I know what you mean about feeling a range of emotions all within a few minutes. It's an odd feeling. After my mum died I really struggled. I felt under immense pressure to "cope" as I had to support both my dad and my daughter as well as other family members. Now I realise that I was putting myself under that pressure and should've just worried about me. That sounds selfish, but I needed to grieve too. I lost my mum, my best friend. I used to love our days out together and I do really really miss that too.

Your mum sounds lovely and it sounds like you had a lovely relationship with her. I wish I could give you a hug. It does get easier, but it's sometimes two steps forward and one back.

@tintodeverano2 - sorry, I wasn't ignoring you, I just seem to have lost all keeping of time. I get up, float through the day, go to bed. It really is such a strange feeling.

I'm sorry you have lost your mum too it sounds like you had a wonderful relationship - it really is a whole life changing trauma isn't it.

Because she loved spring flowers I've filled my house with them - mainly daffodils, as my lawn is a carpet of crocuses right now. At some point this week I got out my paintbrushes and sat and painted a jug full of them . It was was so calming and therapeutic as I was able to think about her/us/our time together in a happy way. But oh my, I miss her so much.

Thank you for asking.x.

Aww bless you. Yes time does go strange.
I saw someone today that I hadn't seen for a few years and she asked how my mum was. I don't know how I managed to keep it together, especially as I was at another funeral. She asked how long ago it was and it still seems like yesterday to me, but it's been 18 months.

Spring flowers are so lovely aren't they? Full of hope of things to come I think. My mum loved crocuses too and the bulbs we planted a couple of years ago have just flowered for the first time. All a beautiful purple. My mum would've loved them too.

Look after yourself. Painting or drawing is really good as it can distract you for a while. I love reading, but found I couldn't concentrate so I started listening to podcasts and audiobooks.