My mum died

[Brokenhearted02]

Hi, I don't expect anyone to reply to this, I just need to get it out. I hope you guys don't mind.

My mum died yesterday. Fuck, it hurts to type that.
She was my world. It was always me and her, even after she and my dad got married and had 3 more children.

I can't believe I won't see her again. I never got to say goodbye to her. I was too late to the hospital. Fucking covid. The doctors said she was coming home within a week. I drop stuff of to the ward for her the day before. Why did she have to die. I just want her back.

I had to tell my two children that she had gone. They are only 13 and 10. It's not fair.

She was 52 and the most amazing, strong, kindhearted woman ever. She was always there for me no matter what. She taught me all the important lifeskills I needed. She was the most amazing grandmother to my children. They miss her so much too.

I don't know how im going to get through Christmas without her. It was her favourite holiday, and she was planning to decorate the tree in the style of the 70s with all the old fashioned style ceiling decs to go with it.

People keep asking me if I'm okay. I want to scream "of course I'm not. I'm shattered" but I say "as well as can be expected".
My eyes and face are so sore from crying.

I just want her back.

Thank you for reading if you got this far.

Sending*

I’m very sad for you. 52 is very young and must be a horrible shock.
Condolences to you.

Your post brought tears to my eyes OP - how beautifully you write about your DMum and how much you love her. I'm so very sorry for your loss, I am thinking of you and your family

@vshah140113 So sorry

I'm so sorry. There are no words. I lost my sister in October and she has left behind her three children and husband. It's just devastating.

Thank you all.

I can't believe she has been gone for 3 days.

I have been spending everyday at her house with my dad, siblings and children. It feels so strange knowing she will never sit in her chair again, or finish her knitting. It is lovely to be around her things though.

I feel guilty that I haven't cried about her today. I can feel the pain and tears building but they don't fall. I think it maybe some type of shock or numbness.

My dad and I have been talking about what to do for her funeral and with her ashes. It's very surreal.

She was so amazing. She would knit toys for all the children in the family, alongside hats and scarfs for all us grown ups. She would make cards for all the birthdays.

That's terrible.... I'm so really sorry... One moment, one hour or one day at a time.
Just get through this Christmas.... But remember for future.. . She loved Christmas... So you need to celebrate it for her

I'm so sorry and it is so very sad. Day by day, it's all you can do.

I'm so sorry for your loss💔

I’m so very sorry x

I’m so, so sorry. I lost my mum in my late teens and it’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to me, and eight years on it’s still getting harder every year. It’s the loneliest feeling, but there are so many people who understand. And you’ll grow as a person in ways you’ll never have imagined. You’ll become stronger, kinder, more passionate. You’ll always wish your mum was here, but I promise you, and her, will be so proud of who you’ll become. X

So very sorry x

Goodness OP I'm so sorry 😞

I'm 52, and lost my Mum in August, she was 81. It hurts at any age, and it doesn't stop hurting, but you somehow get through. Just be kind to yourself and take one day at time.

So sad to hear your news, OP. Wrap yourself in your children - give them hugs and lean on them as much as they will lean on you. I know they are young but they will support you too. Give them extra big cuddles and let them sleep in your bed as much as you need / want them to.
Celebrate Christmas and celebrate it in the style of your Mum - how would she have done it? Plan it around that and it will make you smile, despite the sadness.
I'm so sorry you had to join the club that no one wants to join. I feel your pain and am sending you lots of love

So sad for you. Just try, when you can, to keep her memory alive... Christmas traditions, songs she loved, the things she taught you teach to your kids Xx

I dont have words to make it better now because I was where you are 2 years ago. 2 years on and sometimes I miss her more than I did and sometimes I'm at peace with her death. It's hard. It gets easier. I'm very blessed in that I have faith and so did she so I believe she's waiting for me. But I know not everyone has those beliefs.
Stay strong. Say her name. Replay her voice in your head and be easy on yourself. You're not in control of life but only how you deal with it.

I'm so sorry to read this. Thinking of you and your family. There is such a lot of love shining through your post.

I am so sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family.

My mum passed with cancer when she had just turned 53.

Sending hugs xx

So sorry OP. We lost my MIL in May and she sounds similar to your mum - amazing supportive mum and nanny, crafty, irreplaceable.

It does get less raw. Never goes away of course but the burden becomes one you're more "used to". Thinking of you xxxx

I am so very sorry to hear that your mum has passed away 52 is so young sending love and strength 💔

I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s the most painful thing. Please be kind to yourself and take each hour at a time. Sending strength.

How are you feeling today, OP? Thinking of you, your children and family and sending you lots of hugs

So sorry to hear this. Sending love & strength to you and your family xx

You are in my prayers