My sister Julie died aged sixteen when I was six years old. I only have one memory of her, which was when she was being carried down our stairs on a wheelchair on the way to an ambulance and then to hospital. That was the last time I ever saw her. I have one or two memories from before the age of six but none of my sister. I'm wondering if I've suppressed some memories as a self defence mechanism. My mom told me that Julie was like a second mom to me and that we spent a lot of time together so how come I don't remember this?
Sometimes it feels unreal, as though I never had a sister.
Has anyone ever tried hypnotism as a way of accessing "locked away" memories? I feel it would help me if I could just, I don't know, be helped to feel that she was a real person who was really in my life.