My Sister passed away

[Butwhhhyyyyyyy]

I can't bring myself to say it any other way. The police called me Thursday to say she had passed away and could I go round to her property.

I don't know what to do with myself, she was my only family apart from dc and dh. I feel so sick and panicky all the time.I

We hadn't spoken for 3 years as she was stubborn and wouldn't make up an arguement. I should have tried harder.

I know I'm just rambling but it helps to write it down.

Sending love

You will go through every emotion imaginable so try to be gentle with yourself.

Do you have to make all of the arrangements now?

I'm sorry to hear this. It's a lot to take in for you. I lost my brother earlier this year too. Do you want to tell us about her? What was your favourite memory?

Thank you both, she used to be my best friend, we did everything together, went on nights out and weekends away. After we lost our DF 10 years ago she seemed to change and turned into a different person, angry and very critical. I did try to make thing right when we fell out but she didn't want too, 3 years wasted. I am now sitting fussing her cat have taken in.

I’m so sorry for your loss. Remember that you tried to reconnect.

Yafilthyanimal, no, I am going to take it slowly and organise the funeral before I do anything else.

Guilt is a wasted emotion