Struggling tonight

[Weedoogie]

So I'm binge watching the second series of Fleabag tonight and I'm finding it ridiculously poignant; I'm welling up every 5 minutes. Theres a lot about death in it. My wife, whom we put in the ground 2 weeks ago (although she died back in November), would have watched with me, would have laughed at my sentimentality and we would have discussed, endlessly, the plot, the acting, what it all meant.... probably over a glass of wine, her feet on my lap

She's not here and I have no one to laugh at me. I tell myself it's all going to be alright.

But it's not; it's never going to be alright

I’m sorry for your loss

You’re right. It will never be the same again.

But it can be ok. Just different.

I know that’s not much comfort. Sometimes it’s helpful to have a good cry. Counselling can help too.

I found that talking to my loved ones as though they were still around helped me. I believe they are here in spirit and that gives me comfort. Perhaps you can find comfort in your beliefs too.

There are plenty of places you can call for support or just to talk when you feel you want to.

So sorry for your loss.

am so sorry for your loss.
Everything Elieza said is true. And it's all so fresh still. Time will smooth the jagged sharpness of the pain. Breathe, get counselling, keep putting one foot in front of the other