Hi there I'm Aishy, last year my dad passed away, suddenly from heart failure. He was 87 and always told me during the last eight months "I've had a good life, and have no regrets"! That's nice to know.
I'm adopted (was fostered from 10 months and adopted at 8 years), and my parents are English and German, I originate from a Sikh family originally. Now converted to Islam so a lot has happened.
I have 5 children all grown up my youngest daughter passed away 26 years ago due to brain haemorrhage. She was premature 15 weeks early.
I find things very difficult at the moment. My two older Daughters live away from home and I live with my two sons and husband.
My mum is very strict independent and sorry to say drinks (a lot) at 91 there's no telling her that it's not good for her.
Recently she's been giving me a lot of blame for anything from a-z and back again. She used to blame my dad I am the only one they adopted and I feel everything is on me. She won't have carers etc and limited only visiting to me and my husband.
Husband is supportive but sometimes not at all at the right time. I don't have much family myself all my adopted family have gone now.
Sometimes I feel I'm in a whirlwind spinning around and around, and although I have counselling it's hard ... I have some hobbies but really lost the motivation.
I really just need some good friends to sit and chat with. I have one close friend and a few that I speak more occasionally too.
Maybe I just feeling a bit lonely