My dad has gone

[TheOriginalNutty]

Just like that. Here and now gone.

He felt ill with chest pain but an ecg was normal. He was still talking but looking ill but wanted to use the toilet so me and my brother tried to help him and he passed out. He came around straight away but then his breathing went weird and paramedics initially though he was having a panic attack. It wasn't a panic attack though cos he stopped breathing and then his heart stopped.

I cried so much I felt ill. But then I couldn't cry and now I don't know cos I just feel so lost. He was MY DAD how can he just go like that.

I feel like I need him to come back to warn me he was going.

Sorry I know this isn't making sense I just needed to ramble.

That sounds a really good way of honouring his wish and still having something meaningful to family and friends.
My ma died unexpectedly at home and by the time I hit there she had been taken away already. I never did see her - she had stipulated absolutely no one was to see her or there to be any viewing and we honoured that. That has proved tough for me.
All of the things you were able to do that last day will become very meaningful and comforting over time.

So sorry for your loss. Grief is the hardest thing

am sorry for your loss and its still raw to you,take as long as u need.You do learn to leave with it eventually, it will change you but you learn to leave with it eventually. I'm not just saying it and hope o don't sound rude.11 yes ago I found my dad dead and That will always remain in my mind but I'm aware dad no longer here.sadly my 40yr old brother passed away in 2019 from a tumour amd thst one I'm struggling with still as I know he still had his life ahead and prob lots of plans.
hope it gets better x

I will always feel guilt for the rest of my life that had I gotten home earlier i could of saved him..prob not but will always to my last dsy think thst

I’m so very sorry you’ve lost your dear Dad. It happened to me recently....I just could not comprehend a World without him in it, still can’t really. Wish I could come and sit with you