Can't cope with the thought of losing my Nan, is this normal?

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At least once a day or so, the fact that I will fairly soon (as in the next 10 years or so), lose my Nan, terrify me. I crumble at the thought and it takes a good 30 minutes to recover.

I don't know if these emotions are intensified because I lost another daughter in January this year. So still coming to terms, in a way, with the death of two little girls.

My Nan is 75 and my absolute rock besides DH (who doesn't actually gossip and chat with me )

I'm so afraid. Would I cope if she went? What would I really do? It feels worse than losing my girls

I think it's understandable. It's natural to fear losing people we love, especially if we've already lost people close to us.

I would say tho, 10 years (or more) is not "fairly soon" and although your feelings are natural it's important not to let them take over to the point where you miss out on the present. Because right now your Nan is still right here with you. It would be a tragedy if you spent the next 10 years so fearful of her death that you couldn't appreciate still having her in your life.

The way I have coped with these fears and feelings in the past is to reflect on the kind of relationship I want to have with the person and what my priorities are in how I spend my time with them. And then to act accordingly.

When the time comes to lose them it doesn't take the pain away but it does bring comfort to know you lived your life with them in the moment in the best way you could while they were here.

Thanks user

Sometimes the fear feels all consuming, but you're right. I do need to live in the present, otherwise I'll look back when she goes and have years of worry to look back on, instead of happy memories to last me a lifetime