I recently lost a friend. Not a lifelong friend or a family member, so my heart goes out to those who were, but a friend very dear to me all the same.
The funeral is this week and due to restrictions, I won't be able to go. I understand it can't be helped, and I know family and closer friends come first. But it is still really painful.
She told me just a few weeks ago she had been diagnosed with cancer, but that there was a road to recovery and chemo available. Then a week later I found out she had passed - just a few short weeks after her diagnosis.
I knew I would be expecting not to go, but as soon as I saw the date and the announcement I just burst into tears and feel like I now don't know how to say goodbye. It's so stupid, as there are so many other ways, but I dont feel I want to ask the family where she will be and I don't want to stand outside as I'll feel like I'm imposing. I'm just wondering if anyone's been through this who may have some ideas that helped them.