It's odd when someone dies isn't it? I don't feel anything at the moment, almost like it's not happening to me or like it's a dream. I spoke to him yesterday and I told him it was okay to go and not to be scared and he told me he didn't want to go because I couldn't go with him, he loved me so much and I, him. My world will never be the same without him and I don't even know why I'm writing this, rest in peace dad x