I posted this is a new thread, will share in here too...
I have recently joined MN to help me in my TTC journey and whilst having a browse on the site I found this topic.
We lost our sister suddenly this year, it's been the worst year of my life. She was my big sister the one I turned to for everything and anything. Initially after she passed I did not want to enjoy life I completely froze and put all my energy into helping my family. it's been such an awful shock for us all. I put my plans to TTC on hold but now I feel like my sister would go mad if she knew I was stopping my plans and my life. Part of me is terrified how can I do this journey without her?
I'm on a waiting list for bereavement counselling however I feel I'm getting through each day by running on auto pilot really, I'm back at work and keeping busy again. But whenever anyone asks am I ok? I do just want to say 'no I'm not'.
Anyway...the reason I wrote this post is to share with you a podcast I've listened to and it's really helped me and it will be the podcast I will forever tell people who are grieving to listen to...it's called 'Death Becomes Him' by Brian Dowling. Brian lost his Mum suddenly a couple of years ago. The first series he talks to different people who have lost a parent. He has just started a second series of it now where he talks to people who have lost a partner/sibling/friend etc.
He likens grief to 'a club we are in that we don't want to be in' and it is very true.
I hope this podcast can help others like it is helping me .