So I went and asked for antidepressants and the GP said no

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After my mum's non-funeral I got it together enough to ask for counselling from well-being & got a 50 min zoom (non-particiatory) webinar on grief

On Friday I broke down at my smear & asked for help - I got asked to ring the GP

& it took me to this afternoon to ring (as its hard) and I get told I need counselling in 3 weeks

I went 3 times with a sore elbow a few years back and got offered antidepressants each time until I saw a physio and it was tennis elbow

I feel better now someone agrees that I need something

EMDR could it have been?

I was expecting CBT
I was hoping for EDMR I don't know what this is and I qas too much of a mess to ask

Its an early intervention for trauma apparently - she did a questionnaire anything ive 33 needs looking at and mine was 55

The thing is logically intellectually i know what is happening and what i should do but emotionally i fall to pieces

Could it have been rebt rational emotive behaviour therapy?

Possibly

I thought she said rteb, or our teb or arteb

But to be fair - I'll give anything a go right now I feel so out of my skin

Well radio 2 grief week!!

Pushed me over the edge completely

Just reading through this OP, so sorry you’re having a rough time.

I did just wonder about the amitriptyline, I was on it for chronic pain and like you it made me sleep far too much! But I always saw it as a drug that you couldn’t take on an ad-hoc basis, if anything it could mess with your emotions/body even more if you take it sporadically.

I think you might be right

But it really helped when I needed some sleep - having cfs and not sleep is dire!

Recent traumatic episode protocol - rtep

Just had a horrid horrid afternoon and evening

So stressed going to the dentist anyway, I don't react well to the anaesthetic and I had a bad experience as a teen so the dentist gives me valium if I have to have something big...(last time in 2003 & they went out of date in 2008 so I have obviously been coping fine for years!)

So went to the dentist for a temporary filling to be removed and filled properly

My dentist retired so I'm more stressed

And I'm pretty depressed and anxious so it was worse

Normally I come home and sleep for a few hours and calm down; I cant talk or make conversation and I'm really jittery and beyond anxious/stressed and because I knew I get like this I arranged for DH and DD's BF to pack my car with the equipment for work tomorrow, this evening after we got home

Got there and temporary filling was hiding a deep cavity and a cracked tooth so I had 3 lots of injections and 1.5 hours in the chair

So DH drove me and kept talking to me in the car on the way home and 5 or 6 times I said "can we talk about that another day I've been to the dentist"

Got home and DD was online interviewing someone, so listened to that and her BF came in and started talking to me and I said "can we talk about that another day, cos I've been to the dentist"

Then DH started asking me about the stuff to go in the car (there was a list and we talked it all through 3 days ago and DD's BF knew how it was fitted into the car) so I said no I'm not doing this I'm going to bed sort it out with DD's BF

And he kept on at me 3 or 4 times, so I screamed "leave me alone" burst into tears and went to bed

And I feel like crap and I am so stressed and on edge and its horrid

"so I screamed "leave me alone" burst into tears and went to bed"
eh, don't worry about it. You might not get hired for the diplomatic service off the back of that, sure, but that was quite understandable under the circumstances.

Is it very bad to say that one day genome sequencing may identify the gene(s) for "yaks on when honestly? A mellow and sympathetic silence is what's needed".

Hope you feel a bit better today now your tooth has been dealt with

Thanks I am calmer but I imagine it will take a few days for the tooth to calm down

So my counselling apppointment today isn't allowed to be call counselling - it's just support/help and time to talk things through

God i have had a crap few days, I did yoga on Friday morning, went for a bike ride yesterday lunch time and spent the rest of the last 3 days in bed