Its been years and whilst i understand there was not really anything i could do i s till blame myself.I loved her but was never truly was able to connect.I was hoping when my family's finances improved i could see her more often .But did not get the chance
At the time she was living a hour train ride away we were in poverty with nothing to our name.I could barely afford a meal let alone a train ticket.We are finally out of that hole and thriving and i just wish she was here so i could spend time with her