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Bereavement

Find bereavement help and support from other Mumsnetters. See also your choices after baby loss.

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6 years ago today i lost my firstborn.

18 replies

OrangeMoon · 03/10/2007 16:49

My little angel Alexander, he only lived for 2 minutes but in those 2 minutes my heart was filled with a love i had never felt before and the minute he died my world stopped.
Over the years my heart has learnt to heal with the love of 2 more beautiful children and gradually everyday gets easier but there is not a day i don't think about or miss my angel.

Sleep tight little one. xxxxxxx

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AnAngelWithin · 03/10/2007 16:53

so sorry for your loss. sleep tight little angel x x x

DoctorFrankenSquonk · 03/10/2007 16:54

oatcake · 03/10/2007 16:54

I'm sure you'll remember him every day for the rest of your life.

It's lovely to hear he touched you so positively.

My baby is 6 in a couple of weeks. I feel for you.

bumperlicious · 03/10/2007 16:54

so sad for you orangemoon. i don't suppose the pain ever goes away

cornsilk · 03/10/2007 16:55

TheMadScaryHouse · 03/10/2007 16:55

MaryAnnSingletomb · 03/10/2007 16:56

thinking of you today OrangeMoon

WillyWonka · 03/10/2007 16:57

Two minutes in this world and a lifetime in your heart. Thinking of you, Alexander and the rest of your family on this important day.

watling · 03/10/2007 17:01

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ValnBen · 03/10/2007 17:02

Hi OrangeMoon - thinking of you and your darling Alexander today.

So sad for you.

April this year marked 6 years since I too lost my firstborn (stillborn) ? Also called Alexander - so I really do feel for you and understand what you are going through.

Val. xx

spooklesandwhine · 03/10/2007 17:07

orangemoon my thoughts are with you today xx

PeachyFleshCrawlingWithBugs · 03/10/2007 17:08

Oh I am so sorry [sad[. Hugs XX

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OrangeMoon · 03/10/2007 17:09

Thankyou everyone, what makes today harder is dp hasn't called of even text me to see if i'm ok, he normally does on Alexanders birthday but he hasn't this time, been on my own most of the day with not a lot to do, tried to keep busy but there is only so much cleaning i can do.
Actually come to think of it no-one has called me to see how i am, not even my mum, i couldn't even get up to the cemetary as there was no time in-between dropping dd and ds off at school and nursery as its such a long way away, and they shut a 4pm in winter.

sorry, i waffled on there, just need to offload a few things today, no-one else seems to want to know.

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PeachyFleshCrawlingWithBugs · 03/10/2007 17:10

Perhaps you could use today to write him a letter, and then take it up when you can get to the Cemetary? It may make you feel as if you have commemorated today, iyswim.

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OrangeMoon · 03/10/2007 17:13

Thankyou Peachy, that is a lovely idea.
I made him a birthday cake this morning, as i do every year and the kids will help blow out the candles for him later.
Will be visiting the cemetary on saturday and releasing a balloon for him.

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PeachyFleshCrawlingWithBugs · 03/10/2007 17:15

The birthday cake is a lovely idea- hope you dont mind if I pass it to my Copusin, who lost his Son not that long ago (a year and a bit) aged six. He's split from his wiffe, so finds it ahrd to know what to do as he isn't welcome at the Cemetary on the anniversary

xyzabc · 03/10/2007 19:57

orangemoon, so so sorry for your loss. i had a m/c 3 years ago, my little boy was only 19 weeks but i think about him everyday i know exactly how you feel. a part of me died with him. sending you lots of love. x x

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