Hi,
I lost my Dad 6 weeks and 5 days ago,
He had been unwell for a while and it was expected.
My sister and I had been taking it in turns to stay at the house with my Mum, as she felt she wasn't coping very well (she's 76 and has done really well to my mind)
It was my turn to be there the night he died.
I was sleeping in the lounge when Mum came in and said she couldn't hear him breathing, to I went in to his room and tried to find a pulse, but he'd gone.
In the weeks that followed I think I did ok, but these 2 weeks after the funeral, I keep welling up and crying, I just feel, unhappy.
I am wondering if i haven't given myself enough time to grieve properly, as I went back to work last Monday, (I work in early years, after being being off for 3 months) so a week after the funeral.
Going back also means that I can't be in my mums house supporting her, as I was doing, I'm back to sitting in the garden if the weathers fine, I'm finding it hard.
Yesterday I was sitting in the staff room having a quick coffee, before joining the class I'm in at the moment, when a colleague came in and asked if I was ok, I just started crying, then the head came in, and said if I needed to go that was fine, so I came home.
To day school is closed for a deep clean.
So my class teacher suggested bereavement counselling, our school subscribes to SAS, and I have some one calling me in the next couple of days.
I really was just wondering how that worked, it'll obviously be by phone or zoom or similar, and what happens in a counselling session.