Cousin died suddenly aged 23.. I’m lost

[Bigcuddlybearmummy]

My cousin collapsed on Sunday while out walking, was rushed to hospital and put on machines but she never recovered. She collapsed around 3pm and passed about midnight. She was 23 and leaves behind 2 boys, one who is 6 and another who’s 3rd birthday is today.
I don’t have any siblings and she was the closest thing I ever had to a sister. We went through childhood, teenager years, break ups, even pregnancy at the same time. We would spend hours on end on FaceTime. I’ve suffered badly with anxiety and she is one of the only people who truly understood and had patience.
We have no answers other than they think it was a huge heart attack and she had no brain activity.
Our families had a rift this year after we lost a grandparent, although we never fell out of said anything harsh to each other and were still speaking, it had caused distance between us and we hadn’t spoken as much as we did. I’m beyond devastated. I’ve lost a very big part of me and I don’t know what to do. We might never get answers and due to covid I doubt I’ll be allowed at the funeral.

That is terrible - I'm so sorry for you.

Do her children have a father at home?

Yes hollow, luckily she was still with the father of both the children

I am so so sorry for your loss. Those poor babies.

Hugs . Funeral guidelines are now 30 people if that helps a small bit. Most churches are offering to have memorial services at a later date, for a young person this is probably best as lots of people will want to attend (we often have 500+)

Thanks everyone x

So sorry for your loss @Bigcuddlybearmummy
You'll be in shock.
When my dd died suddenly also at 23 my niece who was the same age they were more like sisters really struggled. Hopefully you can attend the funeral.

If she’s your first cousin make sure you go and get checked out. There is a charity called CRY that does heart checks. Not sure if they are working at the moment. I have an inherited heart condition that may Dad died of and both me and my sister have. We now have internal defibrillators. My first cousin also dropped dead suddenly which could have been avoided if he had been checked out.

That’s so very sad, I’m so sorry for your loss

Thank you all for your kind words. @Murinae thank you I have now registered to have a screening with CRY once they reopen.