DM has terminal cancer

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I can't process this information and am utterly distressed and gutted. My DM is 66 and has an aggressive form of cancer. She may have up to a year we don't know yet.

Her only grandchild, my DD is one. She is an amazing grandmother and has been my rock my whole life. We are best friends, we don't live too close to each other but speak every single day at least once. I keep breaking down when I think of not being able to speak to her- she's the person I turn to for everything.

Just can't imagine a life without my mum being part of it, and not being part of my daughters life. I can't stop crying.

So sorry to hear this,

So very sorry to hear this x

So sorry OP

I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you all.
Take one day at a time and remember it's okay not to be okay

((Hugs)) x

That is so sad. What a lovely relationship you have with her. You and she are very lucky to have each other but I'm so sorry you'll lose her before her time.

I'm so sorry, OP.

Sending you love and prayers.

Is she eligible for any experimental treatments?

I'm so sorry op. Be so gentle with yourself and make sure you have as much support as possible. I found this an awful time as you're grieving already in a way. But we had some lovely, unforgettable time together before my DM died.
I'm thinking of you and sending you love. It's tough.

Thank you. Can't sleep keep thinking "I wish there was a phone in Heaven" and then crying. I hate that I can't be with her as the hospital won't let her out because of COVID and won't let me visit. I'm so desperate to hold her. I can't cope without her.

I remember feeling so desperate and lost just like you. It’s unthinkable isn’t it? I remember sheer panic at the thought of dm dying.
Take each day as it comes as much as possible. This is the time to live in the now. I spent so much time on the internet trying to work out how much time we had left together which of course is understandable but you can’t know. Even the doctors can’t know exactly.
When you’re allowed to be with your mum you will treasure that time. You will cope as unreal as that seems now.

What LovelyMonkey said.
As terrible as things are now, if someone, in five years' time, offered you the chance to go back to today and talk to her...

Thank you. It helps to hear from people who understand. I'm scared I'll never see her again because of covid restrictions. It makes me so angry because I've been isolated and don't have symptoms and just want to hold my mum's hand.

I'm sorry to hear this, I understand how you feel as I went through this just a few months ago. The one thing I would say is take everything one day at a time as things can change so quickly and also you can cope better one day at a time. I tried to see it as a blessing that I was given the chance to say anything I wanted to, as some people don't get this chance. I'm sure restrictions will lift enough soon for you to spend some time with her and you'll really cherish this.