Think I'm struggling

[Flowerpot26]

It's been nearly 6 months since I lost my beautiful mum. My baby was 14 months at the time and I think that kept me going, but now 6months on I feel so low, no motivation, Im going through the motions my baby is well taken care off go to classes and groups but I find it all such a struggle at the moment. I didn't go back to work after my mum it wasnt really working anyway as I did shifts and childcare was a pain, my husband is brilliant as he can be and we just decided I might just need time off. I don't regret leaving really but it think so much has changed I don't know what to do with myself now, I use to spend lots of time with my mum. I'm very early expecting another as we were planning it last year but then put everything on hold, I think i thought it would be a good distraction but now I'm so worried about everything. I did go and see someone about at 3 month mark as had a few panic attacks didn't find it useful just drained me. I don't think much of my Dr really ugh.. Is this just all a normal way of feeling? I can't shake it off xx

6 months is a very short time to cope with the loss of probably the main person in your life for the longest time of your life so far.
Go easy on yourself and don't expect too much of yourself. Allow yourself as much time as it takes to cope with the loss of your DM
Hugs

Thank you for your reply, do you think I'm being normal, I'm worried ill get depressed and miss out with my toddler or not enjoy the new baby, I just miss her face so much I have no other family no one to tell me stories only my memories which just make me cry all the time so try and block it. It's exhausting

@Flowerpot26 I think you are doing well for it being only 6 months since the loss of DM. You are caring for DC and you are having DC2. Work would be too much after such a hard loss so don't give work another thought for a good long while yet.
You are not giving yourself credit for the things you are doing. You are bringing up a child, you are growing another child, running a home, and looking after DH. You will be outwardly dealing with life while inside you are hurting. DM is a big part of your life (all our mothers are huge in our lives) and that is something which takes a long time to cope with. You will always remember your mum. Write down little things about your mum, the things she said, the quotes she would come out with, make a collection of her photos tracking her life from as young as you can find. Any photos in your phone get them printed and add to this. Make notes of what each photo was about if you know and show these to your DC as they grow up. Keep your DM in your heart and as far as possible in the life of the family at your house. Talk to the DC about the photos and the things you did with your mum.
Don't expect too much, give yourself time as much time as you need or forever if that is how it goes.

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It's still early days for you Flowerpot26

Grief hits you when you least expect it.
Take Care of yourself.

So very sorry for your loss, Flowerpot26

I have not been in your position but know that grieving is unruly

Regarding counselling, often later is better, but it has to be up to you, and with the right counsellor. I'm three years and seven months into the aftermath of my DH's death and only now am I anywhere near wanting/thinking I really need counselling. And that's assuming I pick the right one.:o

My DD observed that she was the last on her dad's side so needed the info. Gather it, for yourself and your children. It's beyond painful to have no-one speak to, but history is speaking to the future.

Many