Long wait to see Cruise

[grievingformum]

My mum died over six years ago. She was old and unwell but it was unexpected it rocked my whole world.
Underneath the veneer of happiness/everything is fine that I've carefully constructed over the years Im very very sad. I have a very stressful job and I'm finding it difficult as it's very hard to maintain that veneer and pretend everything is fine when my job is causing me a lot of stress.
I've some what reluctantly contacted Cruise, I am not sure whether not it will help, the wait is 5 months.
Any ideas/thoughts?

I'm sorry to hear you lost your mum and that the wait is so long to be seen by Cruse. Unfortunately the service is heavily demanded which does make the wait times much longer.

I wonder if your sadness is down to your mum or her loss is the foundation plus a cumulation of things over the years?

Have you thought about private counselling, if affordable? If you are on a low income many counsellors can offer concessionary rates, plus you wouldn't be tied to a set number of sessions.

It sounds like counselling is something that could be of benefit to you both to process the loss of your mum and to deal with what has been going on to cause the sadness you feel.

I found a private counsellor very helpful, and he saw me within a week. He helped me unlock a lot of complicated things pretty quickly in the 'safety' of his comfortable office.

My experience of a Cruise 'counsellor' wasn't actually that positive. She was unqualified and paid more attention to my dog than to me ( this was in my home some years ago) I think my intense pain terrified her as I'd been traumatically bereaved
Many qualified counsellors will have experience around grief, it's absolutely fine to 'interview' each one to find the right fit and with the right experience.