When the person you love the most dies

[BlueFeathers2]

My nan died a few weeks ago. I am not ashamed to say I loved her more than I loved anyone else in the world. My parents could not be the parents they should have been, so she stepped in. And loved me more than anyone else did too. She's the only person who ever understood me and showed me pure and unconditional love.

I have spoken to her more or less every day throughout my life. I can't bear that I will never see and speak to her again. It has made me wish that I will die, to either be with her again or to end these feeling of emptiness.

I know it sounds weird to love your nan so much but her kindness and compassion is the strongest and most I've ever known. I feel so alone now she isn't here anymore. I know she was old but she never acted it, I never saw her age, I saw who she was inside and her soul

Life is terrible cruel. I wish there were an afterlife but I can't see how it can logically be possible. Just sad that the amazing person she was is now gone and the world is a poorer place for it.

Sorry for your loss xx

So sorry for your loss, you speak very movingly about your lovely nan xxx

It doesn't sound weird at all. She sounds like an amazing woman.

I loved and still love my grandparents massively. They were like parents to me and brought me up. Their house was my 'home'.
I live on and carry on their memory. I like to think they would be proud of me as they had such input into the person I have become.
I also like to live my life in ways that would honour them and in tough times I look back to what advice they would have given me.
It gives strength to believe they are watching over me and I sincerely hope they are. We have to have faith.

Poor you. I know how much this sucks. I lost my grandma when I was 20 and, over two decades later, I still miss her. I've also lost both my parents this year and was very close to my mum - we spoke and WhatsApped every day so this sort of stuff is tough

I have no words of advice. You'll keep going I promise. Try and do things you enjoy. Try and remember that she would be horrified and upset if she could see just how upset you are and the thoughts you're having. She'd want you to live your best life,yes?

Look after yourself and take each day as it comes and although the grief never goes, you'll find there's room for all the other good stuff again too

I can sense your love for your nan in your words. And im sure she loved you as much as you love her.

I miss my grandparents, i live close to where my nan passed (care home) and it reminds everyday, my grandad past at home and when I drive past it makes me terribly sad. They both passed many years ago but hugely involved in my life growing up.

Would it worth you having some grief counselling to help.

I lost dad recently and the grief is so profound sometimes i can catch my breathe ..he showed me what a real gent should be..was a great day and the only man I ve ever loved.cant imagine living the rest of my life without him.
Its horrendous ..I'm so sorry i truly am x

I'm so sorry. My Dad died over ten years ago. It took me so long to get over it. Be kind to yourself, don't put pressure on yourself to feel better or act contrary to what you feel

I'm so sorry for your loss. Life can be so cruel.

I lost my mum unexpectedly last year and I still dont know how to grieve her, I cry alot, but a little less than than 2 months ago and again to a month before.

It doesn't sound wierd,it sounds lovely you had such a wonderful woman in your life.💐💐💐💐