coping

[hazygirl]

this weeek i had a some annual leave, two nights off,i finished work monday morn had to deal with a very ill man,i knew he was ill ,i called family in,and went to get boss in to deal with everything ,i cat in a linen cupboard and cried,i feel shit cos i couldnt support family, it wasnt the mans face who looked back at me,it was our little man, i bottled,i was shit.my mates at work are great the man went to hospital and died,he was a lovely man, he swore like a trooper he died monday

You cared for him, and he will have known that. He died knowing you cared. That is so much to give someone.

so sorry for this morning rant ,i find things so shit at mom ,had so many shit things happening at mom,and so trying to look forward to new gd ,been on course to learn rescuisation, inquest in october, but i should be celebrating his first birthday next month what the hell is there to celebrate, i thought things got easier but arent /everyone getting back to normal, i cried yesterday its like he never exsisted i went to docs but all he wants to do is increase my meds, i dont want to get hooked on these i just want everything to be right again,but how can it b he cant come back

You won't get hooked on your meds. Things will get easier but it takes time. It's hard to get through but it will be better - promise.

So sorry, hazygirl, it must be so hard for you.

Don't know that I can say anything to help, but I am thinking of you.x