I don't know how to feel.

[Sheslikearainbow]

I was very close to my nan, she was the one person I told everything to. She was always on my side. I did everything I could for her, as much as I could do ( still working and having 3 young children and one with countless health problems) my nan was my rock. Cutting a long story short, she passed away in summer last year. I was absolutely devastated. I lost the one person I told everything to. I don't have that now and as the time is going on, I'm bottling more stuff up. I can't talk to anyone about anything. I can't tell my mom, as she lives so far away from me and isn't around enough for me to "talk to her" I feel so lost and alone. This weekend has been made worse ( I'm not sure why?) But my beautiful nan left me some inheritance money, a decent amount really. It was paid into my bank account on Friday and I feel really sad about it. It's like I don't deserve it or something. But at the same time, I don't want to spend it because when it's gone, it's like that's the last of her gone. I miss her so much. I'm literally sobbing so much now, because I'd do anything to have one last conversation with her. I feel like I'm really not coping but to everyone else I seem fine.

I don't know how to feel. I just feel like I'm the only one who's sad and that everyone else is rubbing their hands together that they have money.
How did any of you feel, if you received any inheritance?

I'm so sad😔

I didn't want to read and run. I'm so sorry for your loss 💐 Could you speak to someone like The Samaritans if you can't speak to your mum.

I have just lost my grandfather, my nan died 7 years before, but the loss of him is making me think about my nan a lot. There will be so much to sort out with their house and their belongings. Eventually I think I may end up with a small inheritance. My nan was very house proud and loved her home so I will use any funds towards paying down some of my mortgage as she would have thought that was the best thing to do with some money.

It sounds like you could maybe have a touch of depression or maybe need a little counselling to help with your grief 👍

I'm sorry for your loss. Maybe you could buy a 'something' in memory of your nan? When my dad died, I bought a birdbath because he got a great deal of pleasure from watching the birds in the garden. That way, when you've spent the money your nan wanted you to have, there's still something she 'bought' for you.

I too would suggest buying something that will remind you of your Nan with her very generous gift to you.

Maybe jewellery or a picture or a nice ornament that you wouldn't have bought yourself?

I'd try not to just let it get swallowed up in bills if possible.