My best friend committed suicide

[Staryskies]

I'm so upset yet angry, mostly with myself. She'd had mental health issues since she was really young but I could always tell when she wasn't coping even when she said she was. But the past few months she seemed to be doing better maybe I wasn't paying enough attention, she must have been struggling so much, I wish I had noticed. I'm angry that people who let her down so many times are suddenly saying how much they love her when she's no longer here to see it. I don't know how I'm going to live without her, I know I have to but it feels impossible. I want her back for my own selfish reasons and because she had so much more to live for

Oh stary, so sorry you’ve got to go through this. It’s one of the most awful things because suicide always leaves sentences starting with ‘if only...’. A close relative too her own life and it was awful for everyone concerned. You mustn’t blame yourself - you know she’s been really ill for a long time and it must’ve got too bad to continue. I hope in time you can make peace with what happened, remember her fondly and without anger. For now im sending a very big hug

Sending you a massive hug.

Would you like to talk about her?

Do not blame yourself or carry this guilt. This is no blame.

I have had experience of a family members suicide and it was sudden and without warning. No known mental health issues. It's such a big topic and we all need to come together, talk about it and break the stigma.

💐

My best friend died of cancer a month ago. I really feel for you. But your friend was just as desperately ill as mine, just not in a way that's as acceptable, which adds to your pain. Would you like to talk about her? X