My dad and best friend passed away in October, six days after getting diagnosed with cancer, he was 62. I have posted here before about it but six months down the line it seems to be getting harder, definitely not any easier.
I was six months pregnant with my first baby when he passed away so alot has happened since he passed, I think I was always trying to concentrate on something else and not actually allow myself to think that he has gone and I will never see him again. I concentrated on my mum at first cause she was left heartbroken of course, they were married for 42 years. Then Xmas then my baby arrived at the end of January so that was my focus.
I think subconsciously I have been putting off dealing with the grief as I don't think I'm ready to fully accept he's gone, it's too much. I love him so much and I just want to see him again, past week or so it has hit me so hard and I can't stop crying.