It is difficult this day as it has been for the last thirty six years.i took my beautiful young wife of that many years married out today to remind her how precious she is to me and to help her remember how she has pulled our family through hardships that I wouldn’t bestow on my worst enemy. If I told her how she helped me through those times, she would scold me and tell me not to be so silly. We lost our first son thirty six years ago tomorrow (1/4/1983) I can see his beautiful little face today as clearly as I could back then. It breaks my heart to think back to that day but you don’t need to know the details suffice to say it was our most horrendous time of our lives. I lay here in our matrimonial bed and look at the beautiful person asleep aside from me and as I weep uncontrollably for our lost son, I endeavour to make her life the best it can possibly be. For all of you, I wish you beautiful thoughts of those that have lost those closest to you be it your mum or your child or any person that you loved but please don’t forget, that us dads lost them has well. Good night and god bless you all. #MotheringSunday #grieving #lostchild