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Feel like a complete fool

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nannytothequeen · 31/01/2019 09:18

Today is a year since my mums funeral. Dad died a few years ago. No siblings. My mum had one sister. She has terrible dementia and is in a bad way. I talked to my cousin about her and her decline last night. Upsetting. In a meeting this morning. Not on a great space anyway. Boss is picking on me fairly consistently. The meeting started with some inspirational words from the speaker and I felt the tears starting to roll out of my eyes. All I could hear in my head was 'they are all gone'. Had to leave the meeting and hide in the loo. Couldn't stop sobbing for more than an hour. Had to go and sit in my car. Feel mortified.

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user1493413286 · 31/01/2019 09:21

I really feel for you; I get very emotional on anniversary days and the first is always the hardest with things easily setting me off. Go easy on yourself, it’s not your fault.
Would you feel better if you went home? The first couple of years I didn’t go to work on those days as I knew I’d be easily set off and I still try to give myself an easy day as far as possible

Nankles · 01/02/2019 16:04

I’ve been there with the tears at work this week Nanny. Try not to feel embarrassed by natural, understandable emotions. Sadly we can’t pick those moments when everything becomes so overwhelming. I’m sorry you are dealing with so much at the moment, more so that you have a manager who sounds utterly unsupportive. Take care.

JiltedJohnsJulie · 02/02/2019 22:19

I think it's totally normal. Could you book a few days off?

I've got the first anniversary of my DFs death looming and I know I'm getting more emotional.

Your boss sounds truly awful too. Are you in a Union?

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