I lost my mum when I was a teenager, many years ago. It was hard, I dealt with it and I'm as ok as you can ever be about these things. That was until recently when a friend's loved one died and she talked about what a comfort the videos and answerphone messages she has with his voice on are to her and she's thinking about getting his voice in one of those bears, which is such a lovely idea.
It hit me then that because my mum died before phones and we never afforded a video camera, there are no recordings of her at all. I'll never hear her voice again. I don't remember it at all. It's all become so fresh and raw to me again :( How are you supposed to deal with things like this?