Still birth and miscarriage

[Bhuss]

Hi im new on here. Sadly i lost my baby at 22 weeks on 2nd November 2017. Then i had another miscarriage in july at 7 weeks. Bth babies were through IVF. Its coming upto my sons first birthday on friday and im suffering from really bad anxiety. I wish i could hold him again 😭 im heart 💔 broken. It doesnt feel like a year.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son and the recent miscarriage . I haven't experienced what you have but what you are feeling sounds completely normal and to be expected, especially with your son's birthday approaching. Do you have something planned to mark the date?

There is a section of the forum for bereavement - would you like your post to be moved there? (It's more likely to be seen there by people who have gone through similar.)

Hi Katherina,

Thank you for kind words. Yes please. Will you move my post on there as i am new and dont know how to navigate my way around at the moment.

Im not sure what to do for his first birthday. I know i will be visiting cemetry on friday and i will take him some flowers and balloons xxxx

That's a nice idea. I think you will appreciate marking the day and filling it with positive memories though it will be a very hard day. Wishing you strength for Friday.

I'm not a moderator but I've asked MNHQ to move your post to the bereavement section.

Hi Bhuss,
We hope you don't mind but we just went ahead and moved your thread to the bereavement section, the women (and men, but mostly women) there are rather wonderful and unfortunately have grief in common.
We wish you every kindness and hope that you are able to mark your son's birthday with beauty and motherly love. x

Thank you so muck Katherina xxxxx

Thank you xxx

Hi
I cant find the bereavement section i am struggling on this. Can some one please help?

What is your son's name Bhuss? Anniversaries are always hard and it's only been a year so you need to be kind to yourself.

I had a stillbirth on Christmas Day 2014. My son James was nearly 38 weeks. I still find it very difficult but I try not to shy away from it and talk about him lots.

Are you supported in real life? Do you feel able to talk about your babies?