First anniversary of losing my dad. How can a whole year have passed since I last saw him?

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It’s the first anniversary of my dad’s passing tomorrow and it feels so surreal. There’s no grave to visit as he was cremated so I’m not sure how we should mark the day. My darling DM is lost without him, she has been crying a little today but I just feel numb really. I want to support her and my DCs but I know that they’ll need different types of support. Often there’s no time/energy left for my own grief so I comfort eat. My dad suffered so much in his illness, it was horrific to see and not be able to help him. He adored his family and life isn’t the same without him.

Retreat i know how you feel. I dreaded the 1st anniversary. In the end I took mum for lunch and we bought a little rose in a pot to sit by dad. His ashes are in mums garden.
Could you plant a rose or little tree in his memory?
I agree life just isn't the same, Its like the central cog is missing from the family, my mum is very strong but she looks completely different than she did when dad was alive. The sparkle has gone from her eyes.
Oh and I so get the comfort eating! I lost 5 stone the year before dad died, he was so proud of me and I hate myself that it's slowly creeping back on and I'm in no mind to do anything about it.
I hope the anniversary isn't too painful, I found the lead up to it much worse than the day actually was if you know what I mean xx